love me baby <3

2009-09-22T01:37:00.007+08:00

So lazy to blog

2009-09-21T23:20:00.005+08:00

I really lost interest in blogging...
Because facebook is all I need.
I am plain lazy to upload photos here.
You can see all the photos in FB!

Anyway, I dread going to work later at 12 noon.
I don't hate my job, in fact I love my job.
Just wish that I can happily nua at home.
Only one word to describe my feeling which is SIAN, but no choice.
We live to work, work to live.

I still miss you, very much

2009-08-09T01:38:00.022+08:00

I stayed home on a sat night because I was having a bad headache just now!
If not, I will be partying away...
Actually I have alot of things to rant, but this is not the place for me to do so already.

dbl o is ♥

My loves^^

My cousin! ♥

XH's birthday! (:

♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Anyway, thinking of putting braces already!
I want straight set of teeth :D
& my face damn cui sia, cannot stand it man!
Need to go see doc soon.
I really need to save up for alot of things...
Need a getaway!

P/S: Thank you for the memories, and for everything else... You were everything to me at one point in time.

I am in pain

2009-07-26T21:39:00.012+08:00

I guess I never really moved on...
Sucks man, a drunkard talking to another drunkard.
You may not know how much it hurts to see you in such a state,
But hey this is going to be a wake up call !
Going to the extend that I rush to you when I heard from yx you were drunk,
Going to the extend that I see another girl hugging you asking if you were okay anot,
Going to the extend that I wanted to help you up but you didn't want anybody to touch you,
Going to the extend that I heard you saying you miss another girl instead,
Going to the extend that I heard you saying you went to find her and took photo with her,
Going to the extend that I still worry for you that's why I insist to go to changi rise,
.......................................................................FML

Enjoying life huh? wtf

2009-07-11T00:43:00.007+08:00

Enjoying life huh? wtf?
Play until siao right.
Party till dawn right.
WHY AM I SO UPSET WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN GIVE A SHIT AT ALL?
WHY AM I SO UPSET WHEN YOU AREN'T EVEN UPSET AT ALL?
WHY AM I SO UPSET WHEN YOU ARE HAPPILY PLAYING AWAY?
WHY AM I SO UPSET WHEN YOU CAN ACT LIKE AS IF NOTHING HAPPEN?
I regret not going dbl O that wed night!
To see how much you are enjoying yourself away.
With other girls somemore.
Last time ask you go dbl O on a wed night you say next day got school.
So aren't you partying on a wed night now?? Choke.
Why should I care?
I am nobody to you already.
You can enjoy, yet I am suffering.
Joke.
Thanks leh...
And I always believe in karma.
Bye.

Boring weekend

2009-07-05T14:09:00.010+08:00

I have started 3 days of work alr.
Suppose to be enjoying my off day on the FIRST weekend...
But sad to say, I am here, wasting my weekends away!

I want to blame him for this, and...
I hate him for his empty promises.
I hate him for being so selfish.
I hate him for spending so much time with his friends but he couldn't even take out one day of the week to spend it with me.

But when I calm down and think about it,
I realise whatever I hate him for is meaningless.
Because he would never understand where I am coming from.
Like what many people had said to me, "It takes two hands to clap"
It wasn't entirely his fault, and I cannot blame him for everything.
I have my faults too..
I feel like giving up...

There was once when we were quarrelling on the phone and he asked me to tell him about his good points.
I listed so many of his good points and made him speechless.
Till now I never forget any of his good points,
Till now I never forget how well he used to treat me but I didn't treasure his love then.
Never will I forget anything that has happened during our 8 months of r/s.
But right now how I feel really doesn't matter anymore.

Anyway, work is okay.
My job is not difficult, just that everyday I am doing the same thing in office.
I admit I have been very restless working in an office.
I am wondering if this job suits me.
Maybe yes maybe no.
It is still too early to say.

P/S: Happiness doesn't last!

Dbl O is sex

2009-06-29T08:05:00.020+08:00

P/S: Dbl O is sex! Wed dbl O again? xoxo

YAY I GOT A JOB LIKE FINALLY!!!

2009-06-23T02:52:00.008+08:00

YAY I'VE GOT A JOB LIKE FINALLY!!! XOXO
I got hired for the position of a sales coordinator in HSR.
It is like a normal office job just that my working hours is from 12noon - 9pm.
But... my weekends is free! Shiok!
I'll be going for a one month probation.
If I get to be confirmed after one month, that is when the benefit will come along!
Anyway, I will be starting work on 1st July.
Which means to say I have only one week of carefree days to enjoy!
So wed Double O ahhhhhhhh!!!!!

P/s: HAPPY 8 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY! Happy yes no?

Life isn't great

2009-06-15T23:47:00.010+08:00

I know I neglected my blog but life isn't that great so I think that there is nothing I want to post about.
Have been attending alot of birthday celebrations (ALEX, CS, ERIC, KAISIN)
Hope you guys had an enjoyable birthday!
I am very lazy to post up pictures because FB is the trend now.
You can see it from FB!

Is falling out of love a trend now also?
If I say I don't miss you, It's a lie.
Saw your FB and I can't help it but teared.
You need me no more.

2009-05-28T02:47:00.002+08:00

Got the feel to go Double O on a wed night!
But nobody wants to go :(

Boiler pics

2009-05-20T03:05:00.005+08:00

Patrick!

Yuewei sabotaged up on stage to meet her beloved patrick!

Boiler singers

P/s: Tell me everything will be alright!

Useless gf / boiler

2009-05-18T05:25:00.004+08:00

I seriously find myself very useless.
I wish I know what you are going through...
I wish I know what you are thinking...
I wish you treated me like your gf, and talk to me everything...
I know I couldn't help you in any thing, but at the very least I can lend you a listening ear?
If you tell me, I will understand.
If you don't, how will I ever understand?

I know you don't know how to express your love for me.
But I want to let you know very much that every single thing you do for me, I know.
Even if it is not a big thing, I am appreciative.

If you want to say "I am not good enough for you, you can find someone better than me"
Then SAVE IT!
Because you will break my heart even more!

On a happier note:
Boiler on sat was a blast!
Patrick last day at boiler, felt rather sad for him.
But hey your performance is awesomeeeeeeee..
Anyway, all the best Patrick! Though I know you won't be reading this.
Pictures in yuewei's camera! Wait till she upload it.

P/s: I wish I can drink all my sorrows away.

Bored

2009-05-15T02:08:00.002+08:00

I am not okayyyyyyyyyyy
Because my life is boringgggggggggggg
Can you add C-O-L-O-U-R-S to my life?

Insomnia

2009-05-07T01:06:00.033+08:00

Insomnia KILLS!
And I think I am suffering from ths inability.
Just WTF is wrong with me?
Do you know how much stress I am going through?

Anyway, some pictures on my 19th birthday!
I know it is like superrrrr overdue already! So sorry.
I got three cakes this year :D

Stole the below pictures from RUI'S blog

Another birthday celebration with memories at Fish&Co.
Would never forget how memories surprise me with the birthday cake!
My face really went cramped okay.
Oh ya I must mention that Fish&co services and staffs at paragon is superb!
On the other hand, Balcony services and staffs outside hereen suckssssssss.
Anyway, would like to thank my dear memories for making my day!
Love you girls so much and of cause not forgetting yuewei, yuexuan and weenah!

2009-04-28T04:53:00.006+08:00

We have cleared things out, so I think it is fair to delete what I have written in the previous post!

6 months ago was you... now it is still you...
And I hope it will always be you! (:
Have some faith in me alright?

Happy 6th monthsary!

2009-04-23T02:17:00.013+08:00

HAPPY 6 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY BABY! LOVE LOVE

P/s: I bet he love the pic posted because he look nice in it though I don't!

MSLCO got gold again!

2009-04-21T23:11:00.003+08:00

I heard MSLCO GOT GOLD AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cool la!
Felt so happy for them :D
Though i wasn't there to support them...

Emo-ing

2009-04-15T14:24:00.002+08:00

Left with nothing, shall I put it in this way?

----> Big quarrel with mum, didn't talk (not even a single word), like strangers living together under one roof, not going to do anything for me (eg. buy food back for me, iron clothes for me), took away my DS lite and psp charger, starvation, locked myself up in the room.

----> Not to mention boyfriend, we're getting nowhere, what is love, I choose to remain silence, I choose not to give up but what did I get in return, I don't know how to love you anymore, rely is never the word i can see in you, tired yes i am, but life still goes on......

----> Jobless, I've choosen to leave livewire even before i find a new job so blame myself for that, times are bad, recession is going on, where got so easy to find an office job, damn broke, money is reality, and money is the roots to all evil.

----> Girlfriends, all busy with their own life.

----> Schooling, not I don't want to study, I do want to study private diploma, but got capability anot, later no interest then drop out, waste money only.

Seriously, where have all my goals gone to?
I see nothing ahead...

Back from chalet

2009-04-05T03:49:00.004+08:00

Hellooo,
I'm back from chalet!
Although it was just a simple birthday celebration for me, I would say i am contented enough.
I had 13"1...
I had phoebe, jiahui tiny...
I had cs and company...
And all those people who came down to the chalet...
But most importantly, I had you and your presence made me feel loved.

Anyway, thanks to all who call or sms me to wish me happy birthday...
And people who tag me in my tagboard or in my facebook...
People who bought the two cakes for me...
The scrappy and YSL babydoll lip gloss palette from phoebe...
I cannot remember what i left out already.
But hey guys, thanks for everything!
I appreciate it.

Got this pic from phoebe's blog.
The rest of the pictures is in yuewei's camera.
Must wait for her to upload and send it to meeeeeeeeeee!
YUEWEI FASTER SEND TO ME OKAY. Haha.

Will be going out with memories later in the afternoon.
To celebrate my belated birthday! (:

My birthday coming...

2009-03-31T05:06:00.002+08:00

I AM TURNING NINETEEN TOMORROW!
Which means I will be one year older already.
Can you believe i am hitting my twenties next year!!!
Sigh.

Anyway, i am very sad now.
No plans for my birthday.
I also don't know if there will be chalet later on.
:(

Went to kallang to find him ytd.
Had a talk with him... and was on the verge of giving up already.
But then things went differently in the end.
I don't know if i am right to bet desperately for what i want.
Now i am reminding myself that I hope this is what i wanted and what i have choosen.
I will try not to suffocate you anymore.

Nick's birthday pictures!

2009-03-29T00:22:00.043+08:00

First surprise @ 12am

Chalet - 16 March

Another two cakes for him (:
The cake on the left hand side is baked by phoebe.
& The cake on the right hand side is to smash it on his face.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

awww, birthday kiss for you... so sweet right lol.

Guys group photo

Ladies group photo

Happy birthday to you...
Happy birthday to you...
Happy birthday to nicholas...
Happy birthday to you.

Make a wish.
May your wish come true!

Blow out the candles

Cs and nick

Group photo (Guys + Girls)

Don't haolian... Landyard only.

Don't so touched leh..

*TADA*
*Your second surprise*

Up next........
Your third surprise!

DIY SCRAPPY !!! Nice eh...
Credits go to phoebe (:
She taught me how to do it!

Okay, time for CAKE SMASHING!
READY YO!

Oh my.

:D

Hello sweeties... Thanks for coming down! Haha.

Drunk face TEEHEEHEE

Are you happy?
I know you are.
Your gf put in alot of effort y'know...
Touched?
Appreciated?
You better be!!!
Cuz i just want to see the smile on your face (:
And i want all my hardwork to be exchanged for your love CHEERS~

Happy 5 month!

2009-03-23T22:48:00.004+08:00

Happy 5th month, baby.
I hope you still remember.
Nothing said.
What's wrong with you huh?

This five months didn't come easy...

Patch up

2009-03-23T02:17:00.005+08:00

Rui said love's blind.
Forgive me for going back to him.
We've given each other one last chance so i don't wish to have any regrets.
I hope things will be better gradually.

Will be back to post pictures taken on baby's 19th birthday (:

salvage

2009-03-10T01:01:00.004+08:00

It came to my conciousness
We're not an item anymore,
Its over.

Have got so much to say to you, but everything just swallow hard in me.
I can't bring me myself and I up to you...
This time, its really hard, but at the very least im trying...

In retrospect...
That day on the phone I said: We have always got back together so this time round is there anything i can do or say to salvage this r/s.
You ended with a firm NO.

I feel my heart crush, it makes my heart skip a beat or two...
Your reply strike me.
I really hope that there's still a chance for me to salvage...

I went down to icon bar that day was not to find trouble, i hope you understand this.
I want to go down to have things said, to clear miscommunication with you.
But when your friends all come to sarcasm, I am really pissed off...

But baby, i wonder if you have actually put yourself in my position and feel whats in me?
Its not that i don't have trust in you, its just that i don't trust the girls working there,
They're initiative girls. :(
When i heard you said you wanted to go to icon bar, you know how worried and insecure i am?
I need some assurance, some concern, some love, to let me feel sercure...
Afterall, icon bar is really not a very decent place to hang out at...
I dare to say that no girls would allow their boyfriends to even step into such place...

Read me, Feel me...
We'll talk more tmr, goodnight.

Feeling vexed.

2009-03-01T01:48:00.007+08:00

This blog post is especially for you:

He's @ icon bar now.
Guess he must be enjoying himself.
I haven't eaten anything for the whole day.
Did you ask? Nope.

Had a big quarrel with him just now.
And i texted him this:
I've got no say anymore. I failed as a gf. I'm so sorry so let's put an end to this r/s.
I hope you found back your freedom.
I text my girlfriends:
I don't feel like meeting anyone today. Sorry i'm not going anywhere tonight.
I apologise if this decision is too last minute.
After which i switched off my phone.
And cried so hard.

Woke up and recieved msg from rui, weenah, marcus, phoebe.
Called marcus and weenah back.
Weenah passed the phone to yuewei and she talked to me.
Marcus said:
Don't make rash decision... Calm down and think about it.
Yuewei said:
Be understanding and don't say things you'll regret.
True enough...
Then he called.
Talked things out. After that his hp went flat.
He text me:
Batt flat call you later.
Till now haven't call yet.

He thinks we're okay.
But baby you really think so?
Its very rare i will get my sat and sun off.
I thought i would make full use of it by spending time with you.
But not anymore.
Fri and Sat you wasn't by my side..
Sun i still don't know if you will come down to my company's bbq.

Regarding the icon bar issue, i admit i was unreasonable.
I didn't paint the big picture at that point of time.
I'm very sorry about it.
And you being caught saying "oh then i don't call her back lo"
I happen to hear this so how should i feel?
You yourself said that if it was you, you would be piss off and might mention the word break up.
And phoebe's issue, i was mad why u choose to hide things from me, why you couldn't be honest with me.
We always had nothing to hide.
I know i walk off without giving you a chance to explain was my fault.
But even if i didn't walked off, we would both be giving each other a face.
I'm upset why xh choose to treat phoebe this why when phoebe has done so much for xh.
I think phoebe has every right to know because it concerns her.
Why make phoebe believe that this love exist right from the start but do you know that now when she know the truth, it hurts her even more.
Now that i know you are actually protecting me like what you have said over the phone,
Fine i accept it.

But you know what..
You are always not there for me when i needed you most.
I said this not because i want to blame you.
I said it because I am really very upset about it.
I have been very troubled this few days...
That is partly why i flare up easily.
I am sick and tired of my family matters already.
Yet i have to still quarrel with you.
Then i became even more sensitive and you still do things which will upset me even more!
You know i hated you raising your voice at me. Yet you still did that!
And that's when i couldn't take it anymore and i finally break down.
That explain the last message i send to you.

I wish you would be more understanding when i am so down..
I wish you would pamper me like a little girl..
I'm not saying you aren't a good bf, you can be a good bf, its whether you want to be or not.
I set high expectation on you not because i want to suffocate you, its because i don't want to end up like my family.
That very first time you told me i am very precious to you...
You really make me believe in what you say but now i am doubting your words again.
My mum told me to find a guy who loves me more than i love him.
I hope one day you will be! (:

Vday pictures!

2009-03-01T01:10:00.011+08:00

Vday pictures!

Busy bee

2009-02-26T02:15:00.004+08:00

Hello I know I vanished from the blogging world.
I'm a busy bee. Busy working.
Next month fully commission based earner already.
Off day = No money
Stress!!!!!

More juicy updates on valentine's day pictures if I have the time!
Don't miss me too much ah... (:
Just pop me a sms if u really miss me TEEHEHE :D

Happy NIU year!

2009-01-28T22:59:00.010+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates!
Am seriously very busy with work that i've got no time for the com at all.
Have not been clubbing for quite some time alr.
I am always very tired after work.
I am currently facing alot of stress and pressure when it comes to work.
I need to get my numbers and i've got a target to hit!
So i need to push myself very hard.
And next month would be a busy and important month for me.
Cuz my numbers will determine if i should go for fully commission based salary!

Ok enough of work, its New Year!!!
Gong Xi Fa Cai :D
I want to wish all my loves one a PROSPEROUS NIU YEAR!
May all be filled with happiness, good health & wealth!!
Get many ang bao and win lots of money!
HUAT AH!!!!!!!!!!!

He calls himself MR HAPPY (:
But he always make me angry you see...
He says i always give him attitude that is why he is no longer MR HAPPY!
Oh my.

My beloved grandma who dotes on me alot!!

Didn't take family photo this year.
Sad :(

Wasn't really happy during cny...
I was all alone on the first day of cny.
What is family..
Never experience the true feeling of it.

Christmas photos PART 1

2009-01-05T01:00:00.010+08:00

Hohoho..
Christmas photos is up!!
Super lazy to post all the pictures up.
I shall post the remaining pictures up when i have the time!
Cheers :D

Alright i don't have the time to go in details about all the pictures.
So i'll just let the pictures do the talking (:
And im super tired already.
Im turing in after calling my dearest rui!!!

Oh ya i got a job already.
Im working for livewire.
Its basically promoting UOB CREDIT CARD.
ANYONE ABOVE 21 YEARS OLD??? :D
Its no easy job..
Back to sales job, standing whole day, super tiring.
Strictly no lateness anymore :(
Commission and deals are not as fantasic as i thought it will be.
I don't think this job is the right job for me...

Mco concert '08

2009-01-04T22:54:00.013+08:00

Isn't he cute?
Eating ice cream together can be a joy too.
Anyway, he's not the topic for this post :D

Ever so handsome conductor!
The mco concert is good lah.
And liu lao was asking me how is the performance and if my hand itch to play the cello, somehow hinting me if i am interested in going back...
Seriously, i don't know if i still know how to play the cello.
Playing the cello shouldn't be a problem, it is about playing it well.

It feels so great to see him again (:

Debbie jie! Ignore the kuku melvin behind.

Young and handsome melvin!

Long time no see hengzhong!

Went to the concert with my girls. (emilene not inside the pic)
Crazy us, keep avoiding the camera beside us cuz we don't want our faces to appear in the news or papers.
Want shoot also shoot the president la.. shoot us for what.

Great job la stella and jus!!
Weeeeeeeeeee

Last but not least...

Presenting you memories my loves!!
Hahaha, no link i know :X

Merry christmas!

2008-12-26T04:41:00.006+08:00

Sucky second month!
Quarrelled again.
Hate it haTE IT HATE IT!
No pictures of us, ONLY ME.
And my hair is so messy.

X'mas was fun in the begining.
But the ending wasn't great.
Damn, what a waste!
Anyway crowne plaza is a nice hotel man!
Its located inside changi airport.
Oh ya sorry memories, i left so early.
I may miss out the fun but at least i got the heart to go up, visit and wished you girls a merry christmas (:
The only two person i didn't get to see was net and stella.

Now christmas is over and up next is countdown to new year 2009.
Time flies, its gonna be another new year ahead!
Im turning 19 next year.. very fast huh!!
I feel like im still dreaming away.
Hoping 2009 will be a better year (:

Anyway there is still more photos for christmas.
I've only uploaded the pictures taken using my phone.
Phoebe is really nice and efficient!
She has send all the pictures to my email alr.
Thanks girl!
Do stay tuned alright :D

Im going for mco concert later on!!!
Looking forward to it!!
All the best to liu lao, my two girls jus & stella, debbie yuerong and the whole mco group (:
I know you all will put on the best performance ever...

Zouk out pics + jus's birthday celebration

2008-12-22T00:07:00.016+08:00

Some of zouk out pictures taken using my phone!
Most pictures is with baby.
But he didn't upload the pictures to his com and he pass the camera back to his aunt.
Therefore, he is waiting for his aunt to send him the pictures.
I wonder if his aunt saw the pic of me holding on to a cig.
Wth, how is she gonna think about me?
Impression gone.

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY MY DEAR JUS...
Celebrated her birthday with her at partyworld.
Sorry i turn up late again!!
Wanzhen left early cuz she has to work the next day.
And then something sad happened so net left first.
Poor her.
Surprise jus with the mango cake from jack's place!
Cut cake and photo taking (:
After which, home sweet home.

P/S: Sorry i didn't manage to turn up for the surprise!

Anyway, I've watched Twilight alr!!!
I think the movie is awesome leh.
Some people say the movie is disappointing because the movie cut short somehow.
But for me, i didn't read the book so i felt that the movie is good.
Some more robert pattinson is so fucking cool in the movie!!
Omg melts.
I wish i had a vampire bf (:
*snaps back to reality*
I heard that twilight has four books.
I so wanna get it when i have the money!!
Overall, i fell in love with the movie lah :D

Zouk out!

2008-12-15T04:19:00.002+08:00

ZOUK OUT IS NO FUN AT ALL !!
Hot, crowded & packed.
Music also not very fantastic.
I still prefer st james (:

Whereas baby is HAPPILY ENJOYING HIMSELF THERE.
He knows why.
Baby says if yuewei yuexuan & weenah is here, i would be having fun.
Quite true.. its the company you are with that matters most.
Aww, i miss the two who is in korea now!

No pictures for this post.
Most pictures are in baby's camera.
The rest i've yet to upload it to my laptop!
BABY SEND ME PICTURES LEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jiahui's birthday + boiler

2008-12-12T06:02:00.010+08:00

Advanced birthday celebration for this girl, Jiahui (:

Dine at Villa Bali!

Look at their faces lol. Cos i was there disturbing :X

Group photo taking session!
That night was certainly full of laughters :D

May you two stay sweet and lovely.. like always (:
All the best yeah!

After which headed to st james for another advanced birthday celebration for MY DEAR GIRL FIONA!
Didn't join xuan and gang at powerhouse.
We were at boiler drinking instead...

& this is the crazy bitch FIONA LEE :X

Hope you and lihui the two old virgin enjoyed yourself that night!
More clubbing session right fiona lee, my new clubbing khaki?
She keep pestering me to go clubbing with her again lol.

Anyway, had to leave early that night because of that oh-so-gonna-be-drunk baby!
Headed to the arena for more fun.
But felt that the arena is not my cup of tea. Haha.
Baby stayed over my place that night (:

Oh ya, a number of my girls whose birthday falls on dec...
- Jiahui
- Debbie jie
- Fiona
- Justina
- Songting

Anymore i missed out?
So many presents to buy but im currently broke because im jobless now :(
But still, happy birthday girls :D
Loves!

I don't know why my temper have been so bad recently.
Think its because i've been jobless for two months and i feel very very bored staying at home.
Keep giving baby all these shits and he keeps tolerating my nonsense.
I know its my fault and the problem lies with me.
But i just couldn't control my fucking temper.
Ok i just need a job asap so i can put all this to a stop.
And so that i won't be so paranoid and sensitive.......

This is fun!

2008-12-05T16:43:00.014+08:00

Yo!
Songting introduce this website to me and hence the pictures below..
Fun & cute :D

Anyway, we're okay alr (:
Thanks for all the concern from my girlfriends and cs!

I need a job badly!

2008-12-01T16:57:00.004+08:00

I've been slacking for like close to two months already!
No income which means i've been declared broke!
Told yuewei not to ask me out unless necessary.
& i asked her to call me only if there is job availability. (HAHA)
My wants have been drifting even further away from me now :(

Anyway, had just rebond my hair recently.
Conclusion number 1: Hair become shorter
Conclusion number 2: Too much layer causes my hair to curl a little.

Five days in a row...
Wtf is wrong with me?
Its getting harder & harder to understand you :(

Happy birthday weenah love!

2008-11-26T17:22:00.004+08:00

This is a belated birthday post for my dear weenah!
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO YOU LOVE!

Waited so long for you to turn 18...
& now you are finally 18 :D
I just want to let you know that you are not alone ok!
You still have us by your side alright!
I still hope we can stay so close like how we used to be (:
Hoping that your wishes and goals will come true..
And most importantly, find yourself a guy that will be able to take good care of you!
Loves!

Happy one month baby!

2008-11-24T06:21:00.009+08:00

Hi baby, this is for you!

(:

Ytd was our one month.
Spend our day at east coast park.
Had dinner at one of the cafe located at big splash.
Although its just a short one month, the days spent with you have been so precious.

I do treasure the little time we spent together.
I always agree that this is relationship is going to be tough, but nevertheless i still hope that this r/s will work out.

I dare not say im a good gf, but for this r/s, im trying my best to be one.

Thanks for enduring my shits well enough (more to come in future HAHAHA).

I really really appreciate whatever you have done for me.

I'll see if everything will still remain the same after our honeymoon period. Haha!

After dinner, strolling by the beach...

Footprints left there.

Had a great day!

Love the way you piggy-back me (:

Oh the card you did for me (though half of it is done by phoebe) :D
Very sweet of you.
Anyway, Happy one month baby!
Definely more to come ya?

A love so strong like this makes me a happy girl :D

& you're the reason for my smile (:

P/s: I LOVE YOU!!

Cello and piano!

2008-11-18T10:00:00.010+08:00

I am missing this instrument so much now...
I remembered how much i hated this instrument at the very start.
After reading jus's blog, i came to realise how much i actually miss co.
And hence the post.
I never regretted joining co, be it mslco or mco.
Being in co, i feel a sense of satisfaction.
I quit co not because i don't love music anymore, there is other reason why i left.
I ever thought of going back to mco but in the end, i drop the idea still.
Cuz i know i won't have time to commit fully to co.
I dont want to disappoint liu lao in the end.
He's the only conductor whom i respect and salute!
He used to guide me through my orchestra days with all the scoldings and naggings.
And im very grateful towards liu lao.
Another person is my instructor mr lee.
Though he always come down hard on us, but i know he meant well.
He got high expection on us because he wants us to live up to a certain standard.
That's why he always train us so hard.
Not afraid to say.. Im still loving this instrument, very much.
Though im no longer in co, i still wish to attend their every concert if i can!

As for piano which i have been learning since young, i don't know why but i seems to have lost passion in it.
The person i know i disappoint most is my mum!
Beacuse she have been spending alot of money on me.
Whatever i wish to learn since young, she would mostly allow me to.
But i always give up half way.
Im sorry, but since i don't have much passion in it, i don't think you should continue wasting money and sending me to piano lessons.
But one thing im sure, i'll never sell my piano away.
Who knows when i will start having interest in piano again (:

Prawning + halloween

2008-11-15T19:59:00.002+08:00

Im late for this post, but i cannot miss out blogging about this beacuse...
Prawning is so fun!
Its located at bishan.
Good place for chilling out too.
Baby and I caught 7 prawns (:
Xh and wei caught 6 prawns.
And the overall prawn king and queen is CS and xuan!
They caught 8 prawns!
The rest caught either mini prawns or less than 3 prawns.
Haha :X
In total, we caught 25 prawns!
After that we went bbq-ing the prawns.
Damn, the prawns were fresh and juicy ok!
So chewy and i enjoyed eating it so much.
Oh ya did i mention i love eating prawns alot :D

Boring halloween day spent at hongkong cafe.
Met up with that Lee Lihui.
But definetly it was a good catch up and laughing session right girls (:

Webcam is fun!

2008-11-06T03:24:00.006+08:00

Hahaha.
Webcam is so fun.
Taking pictures with their laptop!
Anyway, its a boring halloween night that day.
No where to go.
Missed out clubbing that night:(
Cuz baby,xh and cs got BTT the next day.
Anyway, baby passed his BTT already (:
On his way to get his car licence.
Can drive me around when he get his licence.
No need complain i stay north area VERY FAR.
No need waste cab fare to woodlands.
ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

Memories outing - 27 october 08

2008-11-03T05:37:00.003+08:00

Memories outing on 27 oct 08!
Long long time since all 8 gather together as one!
Happy day :D
Cuz i went to meet baby at night too.
Went all the way down to east coast park for BBQ with his usual cliques.
There, enjoying my favourite crabmeat (:

Dress code for the day :P

All time favourite ok.

It could have been a perfect shot if i didn't close my eyes...

Neoprint where got enough right..that's when digital camera will all come out.
Digital camera means camwhoring session (:

Although we seldom meet up because we are all busy with our own lifes,
NEVER will i forget this bunch of precious friends.
I won't forget how we became from foes to friends..
I won't forget how they enter my life..
I won't forget how they stood by me..
That is when i realise who my true friends are...
And all these small little things has actually become a great impact to my life..

Genting pictures!

2008-10-31T04:32:00.012+08:00

Genting pictures :D

Wearing this guess watch throughout the genting trip (:
Now, baby is wearing this watch.
Oh ya, i want to go for another genting trip!!
:D

Me, xuan and chee sheng staying together in a room!
Only we three camwhoring..
The rest don't want to take pictures.
That is why i only have such pathetic little pics to post:(

Xuan secretly snap these shots...

All guys did this mask ok!

While waiting to check in to the hotel...

A date to remember!

2008-10-26T19:59:00.004+08:00

23 OCTOBER 2008 :D

And NTWK, I love you.

Back from genting!

2008-10-20T05:46:00.004+08:00

Hi all, im back from the genting trip(:
I would say the trip was not too bad, although the one&only couple live in their own world.
Haha, but definely the trip was a memorable one!
Went there with xuan, chee sheng and his group of fun-loving friends.
& I should say im well taken care of:D
Nothing much to elaborate on as our main purpose there was to chill!

When i was away, i miss the chance to wish lihui and sylvia happy birthday!
Hereby, I shall wish LEE LIHUI & SYLVIA MOK A HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY!!!

And to add on, I miss my girls & powerhouse!
Lim yuewei, Ang weenah and not forgetting my precious memories!!
Its been a long time since i last met up with memories!
FYI, Im no longer working in apple telecom.
Because yuewei has some conflicts with my manager and was told to leave.
As for me, I see no point staying on so i left as well.
And so, i fucking need a NEW JOB!!!!!!!!!!

P/s: Overdue pics would be up soon.

My condolences to Jeremy and his family.

2008-10-04T02:27:00.002+08:00

My condolences to bro jeremy and his family!
His grandma had just passed away.
May she have a safe journey..
Felt so sry for him... bt there was nothing i could do.
Wasn't there on the last wake when he break down.
Therefore i failed as a brother.
It breaks my heart to see him suffering, losing someone so dear to him.
I really cannot imagine me losing any of my love ones.
As for dearest brother jeremy, i hope he will stand strong like always.
Do take care bro...
I want the see the smiles you used to give.
Tons of loves!

Picssssss

2008-09-26T13:20:00.032+08:00

The pictures i promised you guys...
Enjoy!

The wild nights!

Exit if you cannot resist the temptation:X

Most frequent seen at st james on wed night(:

My manager!

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY BRO VENNON!!

Property of EVAN:D

And i love you girls so.

Days at work seems to be getting boring each day!

The three lovable guys working at st james(:

Anyway, totally hate my hair now!!

Argh.......

I want to rebond my hair again.

I want to dye my hair.

I want a LV bag.

I want a new hp.

All these wants would cost a big hole to my pocket!

But you know what, my mum bought me a psp and ds lite!

So when i want to play the ds, she will use the psp.

She suddenly so nice la. But thanks mummy!

Ok, Im alone in the shop now.
Yuewei has gone back already.
Will be going st james later:D
The twin's mum birthday celebration.
Happy birthday auntie!
Stay pretty!

Boring blog.

2008-09-23T03:22:00.003+08:00

Im so sick of my blog!
I see my main pic and my dp also sian!
Not i don't want to change, its because i dont know how to!
Any kind soul? Willing to help?

There alot of overdue photos,
And i've yet to post them up.
Always told myself i will post them up when i got the time but till nw, its still not done yet!
My pics are all in my shop's laptop.
Last time when wn still with apple, i got the time to blog.
Now leh, everyday me and wei sure got things to do de leh!
My shop's cctv everywhere, use friendster also got abit of problem liao! Sigh.
Soon... the pics will come.... after i finish my line summary. lol.

Soooo in love with gentleman.
Gosh!
Let me meet more of such guys can?
It helps ok.
Im still awake at this wee hours, when im suppose to be sound asleep.
On msn, chatting with nic!
Ok, enough said.
Good night peeps(:

Heartbroken

2008-09-06T01:01:00.005+08:00

I can still feel the pain after so many years!
It hurts, it really do.
I still remember how i go gaga over you when i had a crush on you last time.
As i have mentioned, me having a crush on you was totally in the past.
Now that the whole thing turn out to be so awkward, i guess i wouldn't talk to you so much even if i see you on the streets next time.
You can treat everything normally, i can't.
Of all, why my friend.
Some more my good friend.
Aren't you selfish, you didn't even spare a thought for my feelings.
Im so disappointed in you la SJQ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WN, if u happen to see this, just to let u know im not blaming you.
I know we shouldn't have quarrelled over a guy.
Still loves you.

What hurts the most.. Is being so close.. and having so much to say.
Just being way too emo today, pardon me.
Its all rantings today!

Random post!

2008-08-31T13:02:00.005+08:00

Quite a number of overdue pictures not posted up yet.
Not today, maybe some other time.
Purely lazy.
On the other hand, feel my blog is so dead man!

I think some guys should just go and die!
Why are they so despicable?
I so despise them, motherfucker!

Ohhhh.. Im so bored.. Boring. Tired. Yawns..

Random post! Bye

Feeling so hurt..

2008-08-14T18:21:00.004+08:00

Piss off!
Well, in fact im rather upset and hurt about it.
You all may think how cruel i am to actually treat weisheng this way.
I know you all have alot of comments regarding me and his issue.
If you guys are not happy in any way, you can confront me but DON"T ASSUME!!!
You think you know me.. Sorry its what you all think only.
I won't set him as my target if i want to cheat his money over branded stuffs!!
I will find someone richer instead!
If you guys think i am only toying with his feelings and have never loved him from the start,
Again you aren't me, only i myself know the answer better than anyone else!
And i don't see a need to explain everything because i don't own anyone of you all an explanation.
I can accept that you all are his friends so its normal that you all will side him.
I can't stop you all from saying anything, but its only what you all conclude!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!

2008-08-07T17:31:00.005+08:00

妈咪,
生日快乐!
-八月六日

希望你身体健康永远快乐
我要求不多,只希望你平安无事
你是我唯一能依靠的亲人
很感激你把我养得这么大
永远爱你的女儿(:

Farewell party for jernice

2008-08-01T02:17:00.001+08:00

I notice my life is quite lifeless.
Because everyday is about work.
And i have nothing interesting to blog about.
Except to clubs (:
Haven't been meeting up my girlfriends too.
The last one i saw is rui?
And the usual two i've been seeing almost everyday in shop.

All the best to the lovely couple!

Weenah the model with all sorts of expression.

Suntec crew

Apple telecom pte ltd - Lot 1 girls.
Its jernice's last day in apple telecom.
There's a small farewell party for her.
At orchard's partyworld.
Dear jernice, thanks for all the guidance you have given.
We'll definely miss u!
Thank u for ur pressie(:
Its always the thought that counts!
Love u & huggies.

HEY BITCH SEE THIS OKAY!
MISS U LIKE SHIT.
IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE WE GET TOGETHER.
SO U BETTER COME OUT AND MEET US SOON U UNDERSTAND.
Haha!

Dearest lessie go clubbing with us soon okay!
Let's get high. Oops how far have u train?
Hahaha:X
And go there hook hunks.
May we find the sunshine smile at st james:D

Yea.. that's about all i can update.
Rather short and simple.
There's work tml!!!
Bye!
OH YA HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL JULY BABIES!!!
ESPECIALLY TO MARCUS YONGGGGG.
MISSES

2008-07-07T12:00:00.034+08:00

Ok, I know my BE BACK SOON is really late.
But you've got to understand that its either im too tired to blog after long working hours of work, OR on my off day i would sleep till i am satisfied... or get out of home... AND to clubs... all these will result in no time to blog.
Seems that i've got NO sufficient rest and enjoyment:(

Talking about clubbing.. ST JAMES is my recent love:D

As for work, i can say im not loving my work.
Quarrelling with dearies over work.
That's the reason why i dont like to work with friends.
Different thinking, different opinion, different working style.
And damn my pay.
Deduct $100 plus of my pay when i am seldom late! wtf.
By right the company should return my pay when they never even check the punch card properly.
Ended up they will only give me back the rest of the money on my commission day. ZZZ!
I don't think its fair at all.
Anyway, i think i shld be getting my commission next month if im not wrong,
Wei and Weenah getting theirs this month.
Now i don't have a choice and i can't quit at any point of the time.
If not there goes my commission + overdue pay.
So much to complain about if i really want to state it down.
But i dont think i have so much time to do all this.
So forget it, i'll just endure for the time being.
Until i burst... And....
I just don't want to just give up easily, although i am missing my previous job and pay.

And here are the overdue pics:

Birthday boy on 22 june is: Jeremy Bro.
Had tons of fun.
Miss them so much.
But poor bro was forced to drink and he got drunk!
Sry i slept instead of taking care of you.

St James! My love!

*** Sorry i let you down.
Besides sorry, i don't know what to say already.
I really don't know what i want.
I wanted so much to get back to single life.
I don't think i am ready to settle down or commit to a relationship yet.
I just want to play around and enjoy.
The whole problem doesn't lies with you.
Its ME!
You have totally done nothing wrong don't apologise anymore.
The more you apologise, the more i will feel guilty.
You are the best i could ever ask for.
Too good to be true.
Its just that i found out that i never learnt to treasure you.
I think i rely too much on you already that i have always taken you for granted.
Even if i will to regret in future, i choose this path myself.
Don't have to be sad for people like me.
You deserve someone so much better than me.
If the ans i am going to give you is not what you want, be strong and move on ok.
Don't forget what you promise me.

I'll end with our pics..

Knowing you was already one of the best gift in my life.
Please take care....

Busy with work!

2008-06-19T02:50:00.004+08:00

Hang on,
I will be back to update...
Be back soon(:

Tied down with work.
Yawns!

With loves.

Sick:(

2008-05-29T04:26:00.002+08:00

So much have happened recently..
I jus wanna add on that true friends are indeed hard to find.
A true friend will never harm you for his/her own good.
Dont be silly to trust anyone you meet, so easily.
Cuz you won't know what's hidden behind their real self.

And ya i miss memories.
It has been a long time since i catch up with them.
I'll never forget them(:
Hope they are doing fine.

Started new job already.
Its not as easy like in the fragrance line.
There are much more things to learn.
Being very slow and forgetful, guess its gonna be a hard time for me.

Bad news it that i've fallen sick:(
Wasn't feeling well on monday already.
Its only two days of work and i've gotten myself with fever, body aches, sore throat and flu.
Perhaps im not used to the long working hours compared to my previous job which is only 7 working hours excluding one hr break time.
Everytime when i reach home, i feel worn out.
But i tell myself i won't give up so easily.
Beacuse i must get the commission after 3 months.

Pics will most prolly be uploaded on my next off day which is friday.
If i have the time, i'll do so.
- Weisheng's bday.
- Shopping day with weisheng:D

Nights!

Rest in peace, ah john..

Last day in hugo boss, sigh.

2008-05-22T03:25:00.006+08:00

Isn't she cuteeee:D

Must be wondering who she is huh?
She's my colleague's daughter.
Rui, she's juwita's daughter.
She's so cute lahhh.
But no matter how hard i tried, i cant carry her man:(
And she will say sorry to me.
Silly her.

Anyway, ytd was my last day in hugo boss.
SIGH.
Quite sad upon leaving.
Cuz i have work for this company for like half a year and surely there will be feelings like dont bear to leave this job.
Maybe i will go back one day?
I'll definely miss most of the people in hugo boss/gucci.
As much as i dont want to leave, i still have to.
Cuz i have another job on hand.
Well, all i can say is that its a new start.

P/s: Happy 18th birthday ANG WEISHENG!
I've sent all i wanted to say in that sms(:

Going to play viwawa:D

BOSS PURE, PURE POWER!

2008-05-22T01:31:00.012+08:00

Hugo Boss proudly presents..
The new Boss fragrance for men..
BOSS PURE, pure power!

I think this advertisement is damn cool la.
Love the concept and for the first time im so proud of my company.
I heard they spent alot on this advertisement and on tv advertisement.
Cool part about this advertisement is that...
At certain time, the fragrance will spray out from the hole.
At first i didn't like the smell of it, but when it settles down, its actually quite nice.
Clean and refreshing!

Top note: Water accord
Heart note: Lily of the valley
Base note: More to woody scent

Go and take a look..
Its at lido underpass.
Or you can drop by any hugo boss counter(:

HAPPY belated MOTHERS DAY!

2008-05-13T23:24:00.003+08:00

Two days ago was mother's day.
Who knows i slept my mother's day away.
I know i am unfilial.
But i promise to get her something in return.
I did think of bringing her out to eat..
But thinking that it will be a sunday, her bf would bring her out to eat instead.
So forget it, cuz i'll never tag along.
Still, HAPPY belated MOTHER'S DAY!
I love MUM.

Oh ya, i am changing job very soon.
My last day is this company would be on the 21st.
And on the 24th, i'll be joining wei and weenah at their outlet.
Today is also my half year in this company(:
Honestly speaking, i feel quite sad to leave this job.
I feel happy working for this company partly because the company hasn't been ill-treating me.
I get to know more about fragrance.
I get to know nice colleagues, i have nice office people like jason and lawrence,
and the two counter chief nonie and ken.
Thx for all the guidance..
Not forgetting people i know from other brands like cosmetic and frag.
Although there may be ups and downs here and there, im glad it would be alright sooner or later.
Come to think of it, which job doesn't face difficulties!
On the other side, im gaining experience and learning new things from a new job.
So its a new start, and i have to learn things all over again.
Hoping that i will pick things up fast(:

Birthday pressie from wei xuan and nah!
Damn they actually tricked me that the gift is not for me but for another person.
Being very upset, I believed them and then "SURPRISE", its actually for me.
Thx sweeties, love you babes.

Clubbers:D

Acc the cutie pie cat to jean yip for her new hairstyle and colour.

This guy is an idiot from aramis.
Haha he is going to kill me if he sees this.
No lah, we are full of nonsense.
He is going NS soon, take care yea.
He say wanna take a pic with me before he go NS.
So we'll rem each other fuck up face:X

Money, the roots of all evil.
When i go cash out my pay, about 1k plus.
Keep counting my money, afraid i'll drop one piece. Haha.

Kose mask, done at rui's house.
Evon!! Where's my mask?

His treat at Fish and Co.

Anyway, his birthday is on the 22 May..
Shopping on the 23 May..
Argh, $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
Brokeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

That's about all for today!
Nights peeps.
Misses.

2008-04-19T02:58:00.030+08:00

Pictures shall do most of the talking..

Here's about work.
Am doing promotion.
This month commission don't know got $200 anot.
Anyway, won't be staying long in this job.
Not that this job is ill-treating me.
Its because i can't tolerate this somebody's fucking attutide.
I don't believe other people who commented how bad he is.
Until i really work with him.
Damn.
Can be friends with him, but cannot be colleague with him.
Maybe help nonie do finish the paragon big promotion for boss pure then leave bah.
Need to stand by new job liao.

Heading to st james!
Its nice to be 18.
Legal for everything.
Love ladies night at st james(:
Free entrance + free drinks.
Double yay!
Im back to clubbing again.
Most prolly i'll mark wed as a day to club:D

Met up des, xiaver and their mummy for dinner.
Her mummy really hot stuff lor.
Clubber siao also.
Long time since i last saw her.

See my dearest girl cleaning up the counter.
Cuz ginne is really particular about cleanliness, bt she's really nice to us.

Lychee Martini :D

Thank you for your every understanding and tolerance towards me.
You know i don't love you as much as you do, but i promise i'll make an effort to love you even better.

18th birthday.

Marsiling Mia Musical Day.

Don't you think ang mo babies are sOoooOoo adorable..
He is one example.
Took his pic without permission :X

Pubbing.

Underage party at zouk.
Now i don't need that.
Bleahs:D

Jp clothes are nice.
Especially when guys wear jp clothes, they really look great in it.

That about all for today.
Turning in soon, as usual, working tml.
Nights all.
Loves, all.

Fucking 18th birthday!!

2008-04-07T02:10:00.025+08:00

It was the worst 18 year old birthday i ever had.
A joyous occasion turned out to be a nightmare.
No one spared a thought for my feelings.
I just wanted a peaceful celebration but I brought back injuries instead.
Totally spoil my mood for the next day celebration with memories and brothers.
Caused alot of unhappiness here and there.
Serve me right, my fault for giving them a chance to meet.
No point blaming, its already over. Can't both side just stop thinking about revenge? ARGH..
Don't feel like elaborating even further.
I swear i wouldn't want the same thing to happen on any of my birthdays in future.
Precaution needed.

Anyway, thanks for all the birthday wishes..
Thanks to all who celebrated my birthday with me..
Thanks to those who spend $$ on my birthday..
Thanks to wei and xuan for making a birthday cake for me although i didn't had a taste of it..
Thanks to rui for the many many muffin or i should call it cup cakes..
(:
A big Sorry to Memories and Brothers,
I screw up my own birthday.
And sorry to des and odi, spend money on my birthday and still let you and your friends kena beaten up.
Sry wei quan, i know your birthday also screw up.

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Meet up with girlies

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2nd Birthday Celebration @ Partyworld

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Puff-ing time

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Sry for the superrrrrrrr lack of updates.
Kinda busy + lazy!
Working tml, got to sleep soon.
Nights and LOVES.

Aren't i stupid?

2008-03-15T02:44:00.005+08:00

Yea. Thanks for making me feel like a fool.
From the start, I shld have realised you wouldn't have come back to my side.
You are always moving on.
Me, i thought i have moved on.
But actually I just couldn't accept the fact.
Its way too fast that you have found your fate.
I rmb how badly i cried that night, but now i can say i will give you my blessing.
I hope the girl can give you what i can't.
Thx for all the wonderful memories spent with ya.
My bad for treating guys like dirt and taking them for granted.
Its time for me to reflect on my fuck up attitude.
Meanwhile, im going to find my new love.

Anyway when im down, i would get wild to bury my sorrows.
I love to club cuz when i reach home i'll be too tired to think.
I love to drink cuz it will be easier to sleep.
I hate to go home because it reminds me of all the loneliness.
And so, forgive me for all the night life im used to having.

Thanks to MEMORIES AND WEI who stood by me when i gave you guys a shocking call.
Your truthful care and concern is deeply appreciated.
Indeed the best gift in my life.
Without you girls, my life is definetly incomplete. LOVES!

Pictures taken on RUI BDAY, 8 MARCH 2008.

Busy Busy!

2008-03-02T05:25:00.001+08:00

I know my blog is dead..
I didn't have the time to blog because im busy working.
When i reach home, i am dead tired to even on the com.
So i end up sleeping.
Regarding my studies, I really have no plans where to go.
I guess all application are closed.
I guess my future is ruined.
Even the course i like is not recognised.
Then what for spend so much money!!
Want to go for the interview for SIA.
Being an air stewdardess is good, can get to travel!
But i know its not easy to get in.
So if i can pass the interview, im just plain lucky.
Work also good la, after work go home sleep. If not go out chill.
Everyday like that, I don't have to think so much either.
Don't have to face my mum and quarrel.
I know how unfilial i am!

This month schedule will be at taka 1, gucci counter.
Emily went for her maternity leave so i am stationed at taka 1.
I will definetly miss bugis, because i am always stationed there.
No more for this month except for the promotion, i'll miss everyone in bugis.
Hopefully i can go back to bugis next month.
The last day i stationed in bugis, i MET him. WHY?

Nothing much to blog about since i've lost track about what happened.
Chinese New Year...
Valentine's Day...
Movies...
Birthdays...
BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ALL FEB BABIES!
Rui's and Siew kwan's birthday is up next.
Then mine.
Then wei's and xuan's.
Have no idea how to celebrate my 18th birthday.
Thought i wanted to make it a special one.. but felt its needless already.
Maybe a simple gathering and chilling in pubs will do.
After my 18th birthday, i need to club and have some drinking sessions.

I'll let the pictures do the rest of the talking..

A day out with Rui, Na and Glen boy.

Rebond+Dye+Cut= New Hairstyle

Wanzhen and Wenn's chalet.

CHU 1

CHU 2

Evon's 18th Bday!

Nonsense Three!

The gifts for him-

I mark valentine's day to forget him cuz i want him to be happy.
I made him a chapter in my life and now, i have move on.

Anyway, am turing in soon.
Its 5.06 am!
I have to work tml and im still here!
Nights and Misses(:

2008-02-23T01:02:00.004+08:00

I can't stop worrying about you:(

2008-01-27T00:31:00.000+08:00

Don't ask me how i fare for my O level results.
Cuz i F-A-I-L-E-D big time:(
I remembered i didn't reply to most of them who asked me about my results, not even my cousins.
I guess i expected it.
Thought i wanted to retake my O's.
But i guess i shouldn't waste one more year.
My vp was right.
If i passed, it will be good. But what if i don't?
In school, I couldn't even study well with the help of teachers.
At home, it will be worst cuz i will be studying alone!
You think i have that much determination?
I have no where to go now, so i can only take up private diploma.
But it certainly cost alot of $$$ !! ARGH !!

Im definetly not here to blog about my results.
I am very disappointed when he didn't ask about my results.
It shows how much he didn't cared.
But little did i know he's actually facing alot of problems...

Ytd when i knew that the person they wanted to look for was actually you, my heart sank.
But your bodyguard saved you.
Pretty upset to hear about what have happened but i know you are more upset than anybody else.
Because he grew up with you and that he's rather close to you.
I thought i shouldn't have cared for you anymore since i felt you don't love me anymore but i was wrong.
I couldn't help worrying about you when i knew you might face danger.
What if the person come back and find you...
I always find myself useless when i cannot do anything to help you.
Like in the past when we are tgt, you had problems and the only thing i could do was to comfort you.
Now i didn't even dare to call you up and ask if you are fine.
But no matter what i pray that nothing will happen to you, wen, DJ and kenneth tan.
Cuz i know how important they are to you, especially your two bros.
I am willing to shorten my life to exchange for your safety and i mean it...

Horses are really the unlucky batch this year:(

Bye!

Results taking on 24 jan!!

2008-01-22T02:34:00.000+08:00

Omg omg.
Results will be out on 24 jan, this thu!!!
Why must it be on my work day?
Why not on my off day like 21st, or 25th or the 28 of jan!!
Now, i have to earn one less working day:(

Not much feelings, rather.
Not very scared or nervous.
Maybe the day before or on the day itself, i'll start to develop these feelings then.
Doubt i will do well, as expected of last minute studying.
You can say im someone with no confidence.
Cuz im not born smart but im really lazy when it comes to studying.
And so i am weak in my studies.
Don't know how i will react if i failed.
Then seeing people with good results and smiling faces, i'll just shut up and emo myself if not people will come and ask you how did you fare.
If results good, can be proud. If not, just say not good and walk away.
Haven't plan what im going to do if i failed, and mummy keep nagging argh!
I think about him more than i think about my results, damn.
You know, im like someone with no future, not sure about what i want to be in the future and worst of all, not worried at all!
Unlike him...

Anyway, good luck to myself & all who are taking back their O level results(:

Oh ya, he won't be in sg on his birthday:(
I remembered i once told him i will celebrate his birthday for him this year since all his past birthdays are so simple.
Its not because i don't want anymore, its because im not given this chance.
I lost my courage to call him up or even talk to him.
But nevertheless, i hope he will have a great reunion with him family.
I will be working on valentime's day.
Its meaningless to celebrate this day without him.
I will not spend this day with someone i don't love, I rather work.
Then, i'll start to envy those who send flowers to their gf.
Flowers = Passion.
If only he will .... I swear i will cry.

Would not be working all the way till 27.
Im rotting man.
Pay day on the 28th, after that can do shopping for CNY and stuffs! WEE:D
And I've got a lappy now, double WEE :D
Mummy bought it and she's always nagging that i don't use the lappy too long.
But i can't connect it to the internet, damnit.
So meanwhile i got hooked on to the laptop watching devil beside you(:
Okay, that's all about what i want to blog.
Nights~
I love all:P

Shopping and birthday celebrations:D

2008-01-12T02:20:00.000+08:00

6 Jan '08, towned with my two bestie(:
Bought two dresses from jp, one for CNY.
Its rather short, so i need to go with leggings.
Need to buy leggings soon.
Love the clothes from there.
Style and fashionable.
And it has got a few ways to wear it.
I like to be different and you can hardly see people wearing it outside.
Although you won't get attracted to the shop at your first sight,
Trust me, you'll like it when you try it on:P
Plus the designer will help you to match your clothes really well, something that will really look good on you.
But the price is quite expensive too.

Camwhoring session:D

Went to net's house after that.
Discovered something shocking!
Why are all good guys either broke, married or gay?
Plus he's good-looking.

Thu, 3rd Jan '08, celebrating ken's 18th birthday!

Ignore the pimple on my face!

Brothers( Jeremy,Eric,Marcus,Kendrick&Vennon )

Sisters( Twins&Me )

Our group photo at K-box(:

On chen yee's birthday:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE TWO JAN BABIES, KENDRICK AND CHEN YEE!
They are 18th already, happy liao lor.
Nvm, i'll turn 18 in another three months time:D
Wonder how i should celebrate my 18th birthday.
I hope i can make it a special 18th birthday(:
I don't want something simple like ken and chen yee's birthday.
But wanting something special, it will sure be costly.
Like last year bbq, mummy certainly spend alot on my birthday.
I need to start saving up man!

Anyway, my name tag is done!

And its my dearest net playing the guitar!

Anyway, his birthday is coming soon also.
I wished i could be there to celebrate his day with him.
Just like how much i wished he would be there too on my birthday.
But i know on his birthday he'll most probably be in jakata, that means i won't be able to surprise him:(

And now, i need to get some sleep.
Cuz im working morning shift at bugis tml.
Nights and MISSES to all my loved ones(:

Its the year 2008!

2008-01-01T22:23:00.000+08:00

Firstly, HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!
Its the arrival of 2008.
In this new year ahead, i wish all of my family&friends with good health and happiness!
But sadly, i didnt enjoy my new year.
Cuz we got screen by the police, my friend got handcuff and brought back by the police.
What i wanna say is when something happen to you, you'll know where are your real friends and how important you are to ur bf.
This year town is like celebrating deepavali, not many chinese seen.
Didn't stay there for long since im so unlucky on the first day of 2008.
I really hope i won't be so unlucky for the rest of my 2008 although horses seems to be the most unlucky batch in 2008:(
I need to do some praying, I hope everybody will be SAFE.
Lonely new year eve, with no one to acc me watch fireworks.
When can i find a suitable one to bring me go?

22 nov, Jus's concert, well done Jus!

Her love.

Sweet right! Happy for her that she has found happiness:D

See how contented i am to receive flowers!

Actually lend jus's concert flowers to act like lessie presenting it to me:D

Memories there to support her, loves(:

24 dec, christmas countdown @ evon's house.
Im glad there's memories around(:
Here are our group photos:D

Anyway, Im back from the batam trip on the 28&29th.
Enjoyed. Be it the massage, the club, the seafood & the food.
I came back with sore eyes and sore throat.
Everything is like so cheap in batam.
Bought one ORGINIAL POLO tee in batam.
Im craving for nano sweets now, when actually i didn't like it in the first plae cuz it taste like ginger.
Another thing is that we are so overly protected in batam.
Everywhere we go, feb and his bodyguard will be following us.
In club, another police protecting us.
Its the first time i touch a REAL gun in there!
Imagine a gangster and a police working together to protect us, cool right!
And feb's bodyguard is damn cute alright:D
But i really wanna thank them for taking out their time to acc us.
Not sure if i'll be attending their disco grand opening, maybe i will maybe i won't.

I wished u would tell me u are doing all this just for me.
I know u won't let anything happen to me in batam, thank u.
I really wished I had treasure u more in the past, so i won't have to lose u now.
I wished u didn't changed, cuz i felt u don't love me already.
I missed all those sweet moments spent with you.
I've always felt insecure, cuz i know you place your career above me that u don't even realised how much u have neglected me.
Im letting u go but it doesn't mean that i dont love you anymore when in fact i do..
But, its just that im giving you time to think.
He's one i never regreted loving.
I just pray that he will take care of his health.
All i wanted is him to be in good health and that their business will prosper.

I'll let the picture do the talking.
Or can read up rui's blog to know more about the batam trip and how i chase for the $6 indo mee and donuts.
He just left it there on the ship, so i want to get it back for him.

Camwhored in the hotel:D

Dont u think wei's and xuan's mum looks very young? (right-hand corner)

Btw, she's only 33!

The place we had our seafood:D

That's for all.
Nights!
Im working tml.
LOVES.

Batam trip with dearest!

2007-12-17T00:39:00.000+08:00

I am back from batam!
Oh ya, me and him only.
Enjoyed only at the later part.
Glad he's able to find time to bring me there.
He's always giving me hopes, and then crashing it.
But he actually made his promise this time round:D

Anway, 3 days break from work.
Before going to batam, was at justin's and ahma's chalet.
Happy birthday to them!
Sorry was unable to stay for the second night.
But hope u guys enjoyed yourself.

Met feb in 13F.
He make me wait so long!
Finally, went there.
Bought tickets, then board the ship.
The silence between me and him made me teared.
The whole journey is like one hr.
Reached there and you can see guys staring at you, like as if they never seen girls in their entire life.
But im not afraid, i know he'll be there to protect me, no matter what.
He whined that i should not wear such short skirt cuz the guys will peep-.-"
And so i will not next time okay.

When i stepped into batam, it made me feel im like in johor.
The cements on the roads are coming off due to rainy weather and the road is so bumpy.
The security is not tight at all.
Have you ever seen four people to one bike?
Well, i witnessed it.
Scary, the kids are still very young only and its so dangerous.
Didn't took much pictures on the first day cuz my hp died off.

The food is not too bad.
Love their indo mee+egg.
He brought me to his working place, and take me to see the construction of the disco and hotel.
Now i get a idea of what he is doing there.
He also brought me to a small temple around that area.
After that go massage.
Comfortable but i cannot stand the itch when they massage my sensitive part.
Whenever i felt girly, i will move.
But overall it was good and i fell asleep when they massage my not-so-sensitive-part.
Haha.

At night, check in to hotel to rest alittle before going to our next destination.
You know I really wished i could go there as a status of his gf.
I really hugged him tight that night and my tears were uncontrollable.
Ya, I break down, I couldn't act like i was happy.
I wished time could stop there, or time could actually slow down so he won't leave me.
He's all i wanted for the night, indeed a memorable one with him.
What i can say is that if everything were the same in the past, loving him would be the most fortunate thing.
Too bad, i don't have much time with you already.

Cried enough, he asked me to dry my tears.
Then, brought me to a pub called 'No Name'.
Ordered drinks and chilled.
The pub is very different from singapore.
Its also like a club where there is dancefloor and people do danced as well.
Theirs is liveband singing R&B songs, and their vocals must be really good enough.
But they are well paid.
I get to see very very high people, feb said that they must have taken estacsy.
After that, he went to meet his bodyguard for supper.

Went back hotel around morning time already.
Slept and the next moring wake up around afternoon time.
Ate lunch and went to pick the monk up to go back singapore.
Reached singapore met up with DJ and his wife, and wen as well.
Went to catch a movie 'The Warriors'.
I dont really know how to appreciate such movie but being with them gives me a very warm feeling.
After movie went to have supper.
They having discussions so i went home after that.

That's about all.
I'll be going to batam on the 28 and 29th.
Looking forward to go there again.
Its late anyway.
Got to turn in soon.
Nights & with loves(:

I'll let the pictures take over!

I wished I could start everything over.

Never meant to be:(

The toilet is a luxury:D

The bed we slept in(:

On boarding of the ship, and i snaped the outside view.

Happy birthday to justin and my darling ah ma!

its all about work now.

2007-12-07T01:40:00.000+08:00

Hi dearies, its been quite some time since i blog.
Since im not working tml, shall update alittle.
No photos this time round cuz nothing to snap unless you want to see my workplace.
Have been working from 1st dec till 6th.
I would say my commission is not too bad for these 6 days.
But im kinda greedy so i demand more to reach my target!
Oh ya, love to work.
Got money, and can tire me out also. Good one!
My schedule is already quite fucked up, plus those last min work and paperwork piss me off. Part timer are always stand-by aren't they?
Well, want $ not? Then don't grumble so much lor.

Anyway, there's nothing much to blog about.
& one more thing, I miss my memories so much!
Plently of catching up to do.
There's a chalet on 25th-27th.
With my brothers and sch girls, its another catching up again!
Yay.

Also, i and feb aren't going well.
I don't own him anthing already, neither do he own me anything.
Cuz i used to take him for granted, now he take me for granted.
Fuck it!
Often recalled how nice & sweet he used to be when we just started dating.
Now, i think its because of too frequent break up and patch up, that our relationship has turned sour.

In the past he said this,
" I won't let anything happen to you, you know that."
Now, he said:
" Don't come and tell me all this, my father only knew about his father's death two week later.
Besides, he's not fooling around."
Noticed the difference?
Come on, it has nothing got to do with fool around!
If only i could go back to the past...
You wouldn't have said that.

Im still going to batam on the 28 and 29th.
Girls, anyone interested to go?
If he doesn't want to be our tour guide, then i'll find jason.
Im still interested to go to batam with him, and its only the two of us.
Unless he take the initiative to call me up.
Im seriously hoping for that.

Okay, shall turn in already.
Yawns.
Loves to all.
Nights!

Enjoyed my prom night!

2007-11-24T05:08:00.000+08:00

Hi people!
My prom night pictures are ready.
I've posted them up, enjoy!
Phew, finally uploaded the photos.
It really took me a long time.
& its 5.25 am now!
Im so tired looking at the com already.
Im like so bad lah,
Didn't allow melvin & edwin to sleep.
Demand them to chat on phone with me.
So i pulled xuan along and she got the same treatment as well.
HAHA.

Anyway, I enjoyed my prom night!
Though my outfit and dolling up has been very expensive,
At least i won something back.
Awarded: Ms PHOTOGENIC!
Im going to work harder to earn back the money i've spent on prom(:
My brothers are all very handsome that day okay!
That night was a memorable one, and i'll miss everyone!
Im proud of myself, I've won a title back.
Its something I've won before stepping out of msl.
Many different comments, thank you.
Appreciated that, cuz it goes to show i can be pretty when i really doll myself up:D
I dont wanna be pretty & gorgeous only on that night.
I wanna be pretty every single day.
HAHAHA.
So, i've been thinking if i should perm my hair.
Many said i should perm my hair although it's hard to maintain.
I need comments please.

* even if we are still on talking terms,
even if we appeared to be very close still,
even if ever we patch up again,
nothing will ever be the same anymore:(

Gtg!
Bye its morning time already!
Hugs&Kisses, evan.

See my lessie new haircut so cute sia, like doll. & the hot babe is really hot man!

Made new friends with this bunch of fellows @Plush on the 22 of nov'07